Sunday, September 1, 2019

Here We Go Again, Again.

Buckle up Baby, It's going to be a bumpy ride.

Good news & bad news.

Good news - Went to the OBGYN this past week. Don't have to do that again for 2 years. (In case you are wondering, that's the good news.)  I have to have a mammogram done, but she doesn't think that the small lump I found is anything to be alarmed about.

Bad news - I stepped on the scale. I didn't want to, but they force you to. Something about getting your vitals... yada-yada-yada. I didn't want to know the number. I can feel how tight my clothes are. I didn't want concrete evidence that I had gained all my weight back.

Yet there it was, in my face, plain as day. All 272 pounds.

So once again I need to get back on the wagon, kick the sugar to the curb, kiss coffee good-bye. I don't even like coffee. its the creamer and the caffeine that I love. I wish that I loved myself as much as I do the sugar and caffeine. Pray for me please. 


Any takers? I may slap back when hangry.. just sayin. 

Time to start planning and prepping. Have a blessed day! 




Weight Loss Accountability Jar

Weight Loss Accountability Jar 


One of these days...

I will stop emptying this jar and starting over.
This jar will have 100 glass cubes in it. Each cube representing one pound, a hard battle fought.

Will I ever win this battle?

Quitting is too easy, starting over is too hard.

Will today be that day? Tomorrow?

One of these days I will prevail. Until then, I keep starting over.




Monday, April 16, 2018

Adios Ice Cream, It's Been Nice Knowing You...

I have been through quite a bit since my last post. Even though I have been over weight for some time, I was always pretty healthy. My BP was good, and my bloodwork always came back normal. Maybe my cholesterol needed some work, but overall I was good. Until I wasn't.

February 2017, I went to the dentist. They always take my BP. It was a tad bit elevated but nothing to be that concerned over. March, I went to the OBGYN and it was even higher. I chalked it up to the stress of going to the Gynecologist. It still wasn't super high.

And then there was April. I decided that I wanted to donate blood. I answered all the questions and they took my BP. It was high. 150/102 high. For someone who is usually 117/78 that alarmed me. We got my BP down a little and they tried to stick me. I have always been an easy stick. Not this time. Something was up. But what?

May came along and I woke up with the worst migraine I had ever had. I took my BP and it was 16?/?? I don't remember the exact numbers, but it was HIGH. That scared me. I called my MD and set up an appointment for a physical. He ran blood work, an EKG, and a UA. He diagnosed me with Hypothyroidism and put me on synthroid. A month went by and I still felt like garbage so I decided to look up hypothyroidism online. I had some of the symptoms, but not all. I also had some Hyperthyroid symptoms, but not all. Something I read mentioned that if you have symptoms of both, you probably have Hashimoto's Thyroiditis. Hashimoto's Thyroiditis is an autoimmune disorder that affects your thyroid. Basically, your immune system thinks that your thyroid in an invader and attacks it. Could that be my problem?

I decided to go to my friend Veronica's Wellness Doctor. More tests (the same tests) plus my hormones were tested along with food allergies. Dr. Davis diagnosed me with Hashimoto's, lactose and gluten intolerance, Adrenal fatigue, and hormone issues. I was a hot mess. It was a much more comprehensive diagnosis than my regular doctor provided. She took the time and explained everything. I had long suspected that I was lactose and gluten intolerant. She put me on Natural T4/T3 thyroid meds, supplements and the dreaded yeast free diet. It's basically meat and veggies, no starches, fruit, sugar, dairy, or anything fun. Bye cheese. Adios ice cream. See ya later bread. It's been nice knowing you.

Six weeks in, I lost 25 pounds. I felt better, had more energy, and my skin (rosacea) was better. I continued on and lost another 15 pounds. Then, vacation happened. Throw in Halloween, Christmas, Easter candy, my mother's 80th birthday party...etc. and I've fallen back on some bad habits (darn sweet tooth) and packed about 8 pounds back on. It's okay though, I can and will lose it again.

Please listen when your body is telling you something is wrong. If your doctor will not find out the root cause of your illness, find one who will. Do not just treat the symptoms, you will never find relief. I can lose the weight. I can change my diet. Unfortunately for me, Hashimoto's is here to stay.  That doesn't mean I have to suffer with the symptoms.

Jeremiah 29:11 New International Version (NIV)

11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Blessings, 
Leslie

Tuesday, February 7, 2017

Humpty Dumpty & Negative Self Talk

I always start back dieting with good intentions. Then something happens and I hit the proverbial wall. I feel a little bit like Humpty Dumpty. Broken into a million pieces. Difference is I don't have the kings horse's and all the king's men to put me back together again.

I stepped on the scale yesterday. Almost everything that I had lost, I found. All but 4 pounds. I walked away from the scale calling my self a loser, a failure, stupid, gluttonous. FATSO. I can't even lose weight right. Big dummy. An on and on it went.  

I got to work, got busy and tried to put the disaster from the scale out of my mind. I was still upset with myself and had to take a break. A potty break. As I was sitting on the throne, I had a little conversation with God. Dear Jesus, I need your help. I can't do this alone. Please give me the desire, strength, courage, and wisdom to shed this weight. Not only the pounds, but the weight of my negative attitude and self talk. The hymn Fill My Cup, Lord started playing in my mind.

Fill my cup, Lord. I lift it up Lord
Come and Quench this thirsting of my soul
Bread of Heaven, feed me till I want no more
Fill my cup, fill it up and make me whole.

I felt immediate peace. I'm claiming Your promise Jesus. Please fill my cup with your blessings. Quench my thirsty soul with your love and knowledge of you. Feed me from your word Lord. Fill me up and make me whole.

I know that God loves me and will help me with this. He will never leave me to deal with this on my own. I will stumble again, but God will give me the strength to get back up and start all over again.

I do need to change my weigh (pun intended) of thinking and He can and will help me. Loving myself isn't going to happen over night and neither is losing all this weight. Good thing He loves me enough for the both of us.

Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.



I may not have all of the King's Horse's and All of the King's men to put me together again. I have someone better. I have the KING!

Blessings.
Leslie

Sunday, October 30, 2016

Accountability & Isagenix

My friend Kasey had been on the program for a month or two and had tremendous luck with weight loss and decided to share her journey with me. After hemming and hawing for a few weeks I jumped in with both feet. September 17, 2015 marked the start of my journey.

September 11, 2015 Shirt Size 3X, Neck 18 inches

275 pounds, 434.5 inches total

Very, very unhappy. Definitely not healthy.

Jan 30, 2016 2X shirt. Down 27 lbs. and 32 inches YEAH ME!!!

I did great for about 6 months on the program. I had lost around 30 pounds and 35 inches. Then vacation happened. I fell off of the wagon (yet again), and have had a hard time getting back on track. One would think that I would learn my lesson. My addiction to sugar has gotten out of hand. I did my weigh and measure today and... well, lets just say its not pretty.

13.9 POUNDS & 19 INCHES

I have gained back 13.9 pounds and added 19 inches back onto my already large frame. Those pounds and inches represent my bad decisions. Time that I can't get back. Time that I could have used to lose additional weight. I could be so much closer to my goal of 110 pounds lost.

WHY? WHY? WHHYYY???

NO MORE.

NO. MORE.

The following pics were taken today. I am posting all of this for accountability and with the hope that I can help or inspire someone else out there. Please excuse the dirty hair and lack of make-up.

OCTOBER 30, 2016 RESET PICTURES

258.7 pounds

*417.25 inches

Stuck between a 2X and a 3X

38.2 BMI

40% Fat

Disappointed in myself.


Final Thought.. Winner's never quit. Quitter's never win. I'm not a quitter. I may be a slow learner, but I AM NOT A QUITTER!

*Measurements taken were neck, chest, diaphragm, upper arms, waist, fullest part of my abdomen and derriere, upper thighs, calf muscles, and upper knees.

ALGEBRA

I originally posted this on my other blog titled I am a Work in Progress, but now I can't figure out how to get back into that one to post to it... I really need some IT skills.. lol


Algebra
Mom: "Algebra? Why did you buy an Algebra book?"

Good question Mom.

My Reply: "TV sucks and is turning my mind to mush. I want to challenge myself and see if I can still do it. I want to. I really want to." And I do!

After being out of school for a lot of years, I decided that I wanted to tackle the subject that gave me major anxiety in High School. I went to an ACE (Accelerated Christian Education) school where thankfully I was able to work at my own pace. It took me 2 years to get through one year of HS Algebra. I'm pretty sure I would have failed algebra if I had gone to public. It's not that I'm stupid, It just never made sense to me why they would mix numbers up with letters and expect me to find out what X was? And why would they force me to learn it when I was pretty sure I would never use it in my adult life. I put up a HUGE mental road block. I didn't care and I didn't want to learn.

Thankfully, I had a wonderful and patient teacher in HS. I will never know how she was so patient with me. Anything that I remember about algebra is all thanks to her. Algebra was a lot easier when I was in college because I had a good foundation in HS. Thank you Mrs. Melrose!

So here I am at 43 years old doing Algebra, still wondering why they had to place numbers and letters together and will I ever use it when I grow up. I also don't remember fractions being such a pain in my backside. So much to learn again.

But it's all good. I'm looking at it as a puzzle. A very slow puzzle, but one I want to complete. One I choose to complete and that makes all the difference to me.

Sunday, January 12, 2014

New Year...

Happy New Year Everyone.

January 1st started a new year and a new resolve to lose weight. I have topped the scale now at 271. I feel horrible. No energy, muscle pain, generally feel like a slug. Mom looked at my feet which have a bunch of freckles on them. She had someone tell her that that is a sign of neuropathy. GREAT. That's all I need. My mom has the same issue with her feet and I have a cousin with neuropathy in his feet... so it's a great possibility.

I don't do resolutions. I think those are a waste of time. They are usually broken by the 3rd of January. I have failed every time I have set resolutions. "I'm gonna work out everyday, I'm going to give up pop, I'm going to eat nothing but veggies and protein"... yada yada yada... all usually broken as quickly as they are made.

My cousin Mindy has been telling me about Plexus products and how they are made of natural ingredients and have helped her lose weight. She went from a size 9 to a 2 and loves them. So end of December I decided to join the Plexus team and to use & sell the products. Mom & I started using them on the 1st. Mom and I took our measurements and weight and I will be tracking them. So far, she has lost 5 lbs. I haven't lost weight, but I have definitely lost inches. I am craving less sugar (I've only had two pops in the last 10 days!!) I'm excited to see where this journey takes me.

I will be posting before, during, and after pictures. If you are interested in checking out Plexus for yourself, check out www.lesliezimmerman.myplexusproducts.com. Let's lick this obesity problem together!

Blessings,
Leslie

Thursday, December 26, 2013

I'm Really Good...

At gaining weight. I'm actually kind of a pro. In fact, I'm so good at it, I'm the heaviest I've ever been. Don't look to me for answers on losing weight. I can't help you there. You want to gain? I'm your girl. All 271 pounds of me.

Yesterday was Christmas. Turkey dinner (delish... thank you to my cousin Danielle for dinner) topped off with lots of fudge and pumpkin pie. After dinner we went out to my other cousins, John and Christine. They got me this really pretty red blouse. The collar has black beading on it. Very pretty. I pulled it out of the bag and it was a 3X. "Oh my... I don't think it'll fit. If it doesn't, I'll take it back and trade it in for a 2X." Got home, tried it on.. guess what...


...the 3X fit.
A little too well.
 
This is no longer a matter of wanting to lose weight. I have to. My health is at risk. Please pray for me that I have the courage to do this.
  
(Notes to self)...
Red Shirt 3X
Gray Pants 20W (Did I mention that they're floods?!)
Weight 271
Measurements - too depressing to think about. Will have Mom take those later.
The date on the camera is incorrect.. it's actually 12/26/13.

Merry Christmas Everyone... May God richly bless you with health and love. And let us not forget the reason for the season. Jesus. He loves you so much, that He came to this world to be an example to us. To teach us.. to die for us. He paid the ultimate sacrifice so that we may have the ultimate reward. Eternal life with Him.

Blessings and a piece of oohy goooey fudge,
Leslie :)

Update 1/12/14... We did our measurements. Chest, hips, thighs, arms, and waist... total measurements were 218.50. **sigh**

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

Happy Thanksgiving!

It's that time of year again. The holiday season is upon us. Turkey (or ham if you prefer) and all of the fixings. Time spent with family. Shopping for Christmas presents. STRESSFUL! But before all of the shopping, and football, and the meal you spend all day preparing, it is a day of thanksgiving. A time to be thankful.

This year I am thankful for my mother. Thankful for all of her love, guidance, and the time that I get to spend with her. Thank you MOM! I may be a brat sometimes, but I value our time together. Hope you feel better soon.

I am thankful for my sisters (my brothers too) but mostly for my sisters. Candi, Shannon, and Bonnie. I love you all. I appreciate everything you have done for me! You all mean the world to me. XOXO

I am thankful for my nieces and nephews and all the greats. You all have brought a lot of joy to my life. Friendship too. I love and miss you all and our time together. My angel girl Aryn gets a special mention because she has a super special place in my heart. Aunt Leslie loves you Angel Girl!

I am thankful for my church families. Livingston (MI) and Huntsville (TX). Livingston, you all made it possible for me to open up and be comfortable with you and to allow you into my life. Trust does not come easy for me. I will cherish the friendships I made there. I have the picture you all made me at my going away dinner hanging on my bedroom wall and the box of mementos sits on my desk. Huntsville, even though we are small in number, we are BIG in love and caring. Y'all ROCK and I am thankful for you too. Especially my buddy Stephnie! Love you girlie!

I am thankful for my cousins. Wynn, You were my first friend (well... next to Sheila) but you and I got to torment each other more often. John and Christine, I appreciate you too! Thank you so much for helping me and mom out when needed. You guys have hearts of gold.

I'm also thankful for my friends (new and old). Sheila, Beth & Heather, I miss you guys! Wish Michigan wasn't so far away!

I'm thankful and truly blessed beyond measure. God has been so good to me. I hope that you all have a blessed and happy holiday season and that you get to spend it with the ones that mean the most to you.

Leslie

Sunday, October 20, 2013

UNSTUFFED CABBAGE ROLLS

I got this delicious recipe off of Facebook. I do not like cooked cabbage, but this was so yummy, I just had to share. I hope you like it as much as me and my Mom did.
 

UNSTUFFED CABBAGE ROLLS

In a VERY large skillet, using Medium heat add the olive oil, ground beef, onion, garlic and dried spices. Once the beef is browned, add the tomatoes, tomato sauce, and cabbage. Bring to a boil. Reduce heat, simmer until cabbage is thoroughly cooked. Salt and pepper to taste. Serves 4-6.

IngredientsCalories
Ground Beef  - 93% Lean, 7% Fat, 16 oz.949            
Oil Olive, 1 tablespoon119            
Onion 1 cup68            
Minced Garlic  tbsp. 4            
Oregano, dried, 1 tsp., ground6            
Italian Seasoning, 1 teaspoon0            
Tomato Sauce 15 oz. (425g), 1 container (1 4/5 cups ea.)140            
Tomatoes - Diced, 2 containers (1 4/5 cups ea.)210            
             
Total:1,496
Per Serving:      374 

Friday, October 18, 2013

Just Some Food for Thought...

“The difference between a mountain and a molehill is your perspective.” ~Al Neuharth

“Little by little does the trick.” ~Aesop

“Whether you think you can or can’t, you’re right.” ~Henry Ford

“Don’t wait until everything is just right. It will never be perfect. There will always be challenges, obstacles and less than perfect conditions. So what. Get started now. With each step you take, you will grow stronger and stronger, more and more skilled, more and more self-confident and more and more successful.” ~Mark Victor Hansen

“Courage is fear that has said its prayers.” ~Dorothy Bernard

All quotes were taken off of www.fitnessforweightloss.com.

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

I wrote and published this blog post on my Word Press blog. This is a good reminder to myself that I have to let go of my fears.

 

What am I afraid of?


“The key to change… is to let go of fear.” ~Roseanne Cash

Fear is a great motivator, but it can also keep you from achieving your dreams. My aunt said something to me last week that well frankly, it pissed me off. She said that “When you were a child, you were afraid of your own shadow. The slightest little thing intimidated you”. Pissed as I was, I sat and stewed on it for a while. I determined that she was partly right. Only partly. My shadow only intimidates me when it’s skinnier than I am and is having a better hair day than me.
I was a shy child and would hide behind my mothers skirt at church. Thankfully I outgrew that. I had friends. My cousin Wynn and my friend Sheila were two of my first friends. Even though I have a huge family, I didn’t have a wide social circle. I went to a small private Christian school, where Tina and later Jackie became two of my besties. Yes there were kids that intimidated me, but they were mean. My limited social circle didn’t really improve until I got out into the real world and started working.
As an adult, I joined a church in Michigan and it took several years for me to let people in. I was afraid that they would see I wasn’t a very good Christian. They were all so smart and well versed in the Bible and I was intimidated. Once I allowed myself to open up to them, I was blessed. They took me in, loved me, and made me feel secure enough to be myself… and you know what, they loved me and my sarcastic self anyway!

“Decide that you want it more than you are afraid of it.” ~Bill Cosby

Am I ready to take on the challenges that I will face to accomplish my goals? One of my goals is to lose 100 lbs. Another is to take a sewing class and a class at my gym. I stepped on the scale this morning, had my mother take my measurements, and have tracked my food intake. Good first steps towards losing the 100 pounds I need to lose. Now that I’ve taken the first steps, I need to take the second, then the third and so on and so forth. The more steps taken (even if they are baby steps), the shorter the distance to my goal. Will I let fear/anxiety get in my way again? Probably. But this time I determined not to let it keep me down. It needs to be my motivator, I will not let it hold me captive.

“To conquer fear is the beginning of wisdom.” ~Bertrand Russell

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Hello again!

Well, Weight Watchers and I lasted for about 3 months. I logged my food everyday for about a month, then got so bored with it. I started only logging breakfast and lunch. Then I would skip days. Then a week. I couldn't afford the program. When you live paycheck to paycheck, spending an extra $40-50 bucks a month on a program you don't use to its utmost is a waste of money. It's a great program, it's just not for me, not at this time. Unfortunately, this means the gym membership has to go too.

Apple Cider Vinegar...I have decided to try drinking ACV. In water, it's horrid. The first time I used 2 tsp. of ACV I gagged!! I got 2 sips in me. The next time, I used 1 tsp. of ACV with 1 tsp. of Agave nectar. Still horrid. About the only way I can drink it is in Apple juice. The information I pulled off the internet stated that if you drink ACV, which in liquid form is the most effective, it will help flush your system, aid in digestion, clear up skin issues, curb cravings, and regulate your metabolism. Its also really good for heartburn. I have only drank it in apple juice the one time. I know it's not going to taste good, but at least in apple juice I am able to drink it. Several issues I'm hoping it will help me with - frequent heart burn, my rosacea, and I need to lose weight. I know its not a miracle cure and don't look for it to be, but maybe it will help with my sugar cravings. If I can't do the liquid, then I will try it in pill form.

Zumba. OH MY WORD... ZUMBA. IS. SO. FREAKING. HARD. I bought the DVD's so that I can do them at home. I have two left feet and no rhythm. It's like my brain has a shut off switch when it comes to dancing.

The thing with weight loss is that you really have to want it, be totally dedicated to it. It's not easy. It's a lifestyle change. You have to be willing and able to make the change. I'm going to keep trying and struggling until I figure out what works for me.

Until next time,

XOXO,
Leslie

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Here I Go Again....

Hi Everyone. It's been a really long time since I've posted on here. Mostly because I forgot my password. I started another blog on word press and will continue to use that one for whatever ramblings run through my nutty noggin. This one will remain about my struggles with weightloss.

They say to never quit quitting, so Here I Go Again. Tonight I RE-joined weight watchers. They have completely overhauled the program. Along with the meetings, I can use my smart phone to track. I can also access the eTools.

My starting weight is 263.6. The heaviest I have ever been. I am so un-happy in my own skin. I don't even look at myself in the mirror. My measurements are Chest HUGE Waist HUGE and HIPS HUGE. Enough with the depressed talk.

Please pray that I can make the changes needed and through this, I can help my motivate my mom to lose the weight she needs to lose. We need to be each others support.

Blessings,
Leslie

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Name Change? Maybe...

I'm thinking I should change the name of my blog to "HOW NOT TO LOSE WEIGHT". I seem to be an expert on how to gain weight. I'm surely no expert on losing it.

Portion size?? Whats that?
Who needs exercise?
Accountability. Never heard of it.

So the problem is I have reached an all time high in my weight. 260. But along with that added weight have come some health concerns. Higher blood pressure, feet and ankles that are swelling. My face is flushed a lot and warm to the touch. I looked up these sypmtoms on WebMD and they all point toward Congestive Heart Failure. The same disease that took my dad at 74 nearly 3 years ago.

I wish I had the answers. I certainly have a lot of work to do to get my health back on track. First steps are always the hardest.

Step One. Eat right, Eat light.
Step Two. GET TO GETTIN'.
Step Three. Journal my food and my thoughts and feelings for the day.
Step Four. Don't give up.
It's time.

Saturday, June 2, 2012

Dear God, It's Leslie AGAIN.....


Dear God,

Please...

Make vegetables taste better,
Carbohydrates taste worse.
Water to satisfy me.
And pop taste like dirt.

Take away my cravings
For sugar and junk.
Please let there be
A lot less in my trunk.  

Make the clothes that don’t fit me
Because their too tight,
Fall off of my body
That will someday be light.

Help me to be a do-er
And not just a talker.
Be an encourgagement to others
and a walk-the-walk walker.

Please Lord, give me...

Forgiveness
Courage
Motivation
Wisdom
Knowledge
Perseverance
Strength
Ability
Health
Happiness
Love

Amen.









Thursday, February 23, 2012

God Bless Texas

Texas has been really hard on my diet. Maybe its the fact that I'm not working right now, but I generally spend my days either at my computer, or out galivanting with my mother and my aunt. Just yesterday, we met my cousin for lunch, did some running around and then five of us went out to dinner. Yes I know, I could have ordered salads, but these places were not exactly conducive to decent salads. One place was a bar (gotta have a bar burger) and the other was this little diner out in the middle of nowheresville. The menu selection was....well... let's just say slim pickings in the healthy food department. Fried, fried, fried.
I hope I get a job soon. I don't know how much more of the going out to lunch and dinner my wallet and waist line can afford. I love spending the time with my family though. We're a good group of people.

My sister called and asked me to be her diet buddy. I am going to get online and check out the Dr. Oz/Weight Watchers thing and see how that works. Dr. Oz had on his show a few weeks ago, a way to boost your metabolism. The video is for Raspberry Ketones. http://www.doctoroz.com/videos/miracle-fat-burner-bottle. Since Dr. Oz had them on his show, they are very hard to find. Most places have them on back order or don't know when they will get them in again. However, Mom and I found some yesterday at a local store and we are both going to try them. In the above video, Dr Oz demonstrates how the Ketones are supposed to help shrink your fat cells and boost your metabolism. Pretty cool demonstration. They are all natural, so there should be no side effects. Here's hoping.

Well this girl has lots to do today and needs to get at it. First up, a second cup of coffee.

Toodles,
Leslie

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Day Three....

Yesterday was a tad hellish on the diet. Taco Bell (Chicken Burrito Fresco and a frozen strawberry fruit drink) for lunch and a Fat Boys Burger (with Fries and a Dr Pepper) for dinner. Yes, I know I could have skipped the fries and had water, but who wants water with a burger?! Today is not going to be easy either. We take my mom to the Dr in Bryan and will have to take her for lunch afterwards as she can not eat right before her appointment. Salad anyone? At least we'll do some mall walking to walk it off.

Toodles Everyone, I've got to get to gettin'.

Leslie

Monday, February 13, 2012

Day Two - UPDATE.

Well, Mom and I are both still alive! We haven't killed each other yet. Also, I tracked my food today (well most of it). I have gotta get the water in me. If I were to take half my weight and drink that in ounces.... (or as my sister Shannon says "Drink Niagara Falls") I'll be up all night peeing. Guess I better start small and work my way up to that one! lol

Sunday, February 12, 2012