Hello blogosphere! It's been a while. I've missed you!
In the last three months, I found as I was getting deeper and deeper in debt, that I could no longer afford Jenny Craig so I had to stop going. I have decided to go it alone. How have I been doing? Well...not so hot. I am back up to 217. Which means since starting this blog I have gained 10 lbs and now have 50 plus to lose.
SABOTAGE....It's a big ugly word that Webster's defines as an act or process tending to hamper or hurt, deliberate subversion. I don't know about you but I do it to myself ALL the time. After eating half a bag of cookies or half a carton of ice cream, I sit there thinking "You Idiot, what did you do that for? You know better!" "Okay, so next time I go to the store, I just won't buy that stuff." and then what do I do? I buy another bag of cookies. Seriously!!
Why do I do it? What am I so afraid of? Success?? Men/people looking at me?? What a terrible thing to be afraid of! UGH....It's a lot to consider and it makes my brain hurt. I KNOW I can lose the weight. I've done it before. At my heaviest, I was 235, I lost 50 only to turn around and SABOTAGE myself and gain most of it back.
Well as I consider this and many other things...like going vegetarian and giving up foods with nuts, I am sure I will continue to have good days and bad. I pray for the good and hope that the bad days don't continue to be the norm.
Blessings to all.
Leslie
What do you do to sabotage yourself? How do you overcome it?
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