Thursday, January 28, 2010


Wednesday was temptation day. It was cake day at work. Chocolate cake covered in mounds of peanut butter frosting, candy bits, and chocolate drizzle. (My mouth is watering as I type this. LOL) Man did it look good.

Have you ever felt like you had the devil sitting on one shoulder and an angel sitting on the other?

Devil: Hey Leslie, That looks so good! I bet it tastes even better.
Angel: A moment on the lips...
Devil: OH go ahead, you know you want too! No one will know.
Angel: A lifetime on the hips. And you're hips are big enough sister!

So I gave the Devil a flick and knocked his pointy ass off my shoulder.

Then it was off to lunch with my buddy Carol. We went to this place called The Farm Grill. They serve Mediterranean cuisine and it is delicious and healthy. (We go there so often, the waiter knows what we want before we place the order!) So I ordered my Falafel sandwich, small mixed green salad with dressing on the side and WATER! See, the tough part of going out to lunch or dinner for me is not getting a pop. I love pop, no make that I LOVE POP! However I settled for water... and I was satisfied. Whodathunkit??

Some things I have noticed over the last few days:

1. That drinking water has cut down my cravings. I am fuller longer, and my face is clearing up. Unfortunately I'm also peeing 80 times a day.

2. That it's important to praise myself! I beat myself up when I have a bad day so why not praise myself when I have a win. YEAH ME! I resisted temptation twice yesterday and won AND it didn't kill me. Good job Leslie! I'm so proud of you!

3. This is a one day at a time, one minute at a time, one moment at a time journey. The decisions I make today, affect the scale tomorrow. Might as well make it a good day, a good minute, a good moment.


Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Weekly Weigh-in...

So tonight was my weigh-in. I lost 1.2 lbs this week bringing me down to 210.0 and my total Jenny Craig weight loss to date is 12 lbs. I am happy for the loss, but was hoping it would be a little bit more.

I ate really well this week and the last two days I have drank sooo much water that my eyeballs are floating. Literally ;-p Good news though: I'm not craving the chocolate as much.

Natalie and I decided to basically start all over from the beginning. We discussed concentrating on getting the food under control. Planning menus and keeping track of everything eaten...ZZZzzz I know, but I have to do it. The key to my weight loss is going to be seeing what I have done. What was good, where I went wrong and improving on that. Next step will be working on body and mind. Working out and figuring out WHY I eat the way I do. Gonna be a long journey!

The reason I decided to lose the weight in the first place was because I don't want to travel down the same road my parents did. My father passed away in July from congestive heart failure and my mom has had heart and cancer issues. My dad's heart issues could have been reversed when he was first diagnosed. All they wanted him to do was eat better and get some exercise. Our health is way too important and life is too short as it is. I miss my Dad. 74 was too young.

My goals for this week are to continue with my water consumption (I'm at 80 oz for today!!), to keep track of my steps and increase my activity everyday. My affirmation for the week is "I deserve to be healthy AND happy!" and I do! I so do. AND SO DO YOU!

God grant me the Serenity
To ACCEPT the things I CANNOT change,
COURAGE to change the things I CAN change,
And the WISDOM to know the difference.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Today was a good day.

Today was a good day. Unfortunately like at the beginning of any I mean lifestyle change, all I could think about today was food. What am I gonna eat? When? Is it too early for my snack? How am I going to eat all this fruit? Why can't veggies taste like chocolate? I wonder if I have any chocolate? Ok so the last one is a recurring thought. I've long held to the belief that Chocolate should be one of the four major food groups. Right up there with pop, popcorn and cookies.

My goals for tomorrow are to meet my water consumption goal of 48 oz. (baby steps) and to get 5000 steps (2.5 miles) in.

My long-term goals are to start jogging and to run a 5K. I also hope to battle my depression and anxiety the healthy way, through diet and exercise - without medication.


Wednesday, January 20, 2010

I weigh 211.2

Yep, That's right. I said it. I weigh 211.2. And that's not the heaviest I have ever been. A few years ago I weighed in at 235 and with the help of Weight Watchers and Curves, I lost 50 lbs. Feeling confident, I decided to go it alone. I knew how to eat, I would continue to work out, but I would do the diet on my own. BIG MISTAKE!! Within a year, I had gained 20 of the original 50 back. Since then I have been gaining and losing the same 15 pounds.

In May of last year, feeling hopeless and fat, I decided to join Jenny Craig. NO, no, no, I assure you this is not an advertisement for Jenny Craig, although their food is wonderful and having a consultant to help me through my stumbles and praise me for my wins is a tremendous help. Natalie Rocks! As Natalie says, "I'm gonna rock the JC!!" and I sure hope she's right. So how am I doing since I joined JC? Well, I have lost a grand total of - brace yourself - 10 pounds. See I told you this was not an advertisement!

Today, I am re-booting myself and rededicating myself to my weight loss. I'm going to stick with Jenny. I went in for my weigh-in tonight and the dreaded 211.2 showed up on the scale. I asked Natalie to take my measurements. 47-42-47. (YIKES!!) I am beyond mortified to post this, but I am taking a page out of The Biggest Loser handbook. They made the contestants weigh in in front of their friends and family. I am hoping that by doing this, it will help to motivate me. Maybe I will inspire you! I thank you in advance for all of your love and support.

Motivation, now that I have to work on. What will be my motivation? Better health? Smaller clothes? Get rid of my spare tire? YES. YES. YES. Snag me a man? OH HECK YA!! LOL. Being happy in my own skin? Most definitely YES!

I will be posting pictures of my progress throughout. Don't worry, unlike the contestants on The Biggest Loser, I promise you won't have to look at me wearing a sports bra and bike shorts. Bleecchh!

My ultimate goal is to reach 160 and train for a 5K. I hope to post about my ups and downs, my weight loss :) or God forbid, my weight gain :( and if I run across some yummy recipes along the way, I'll post them too.

Psalms 139:14 I will praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, and that my soul knows very well.

God Bless You!