I'm thinking I should change the name of my blog to "HOW NOT TO LOSE WEIGHT". I seem to be an expert on how to gain weight. I'm surely no expert on losing it.
Portion size?? Whats that?
Who needs exercise?
Accountability. Never heard of it.
So the problem is I have reached an all time high in my weight. 260. But along with that added weight have come some health concerns. Higher blood pressure, feet and ankles that are swelling. My face is flushed a lot and warm to the touch. I looked up these sypmtoms on WebMD and they all point toward Congestive Heart Failure. The same disease that took my dad at 74 nearly 3 years ago.
I wish I had the answers. I certainly have a lot of work to do to get my health back on track. First steps are always the hardest.
Step One. Eat right, Eat light.
Step Two. GET TO GETTIN'.
Step Three. Journal my food and my thoughts and feelings for the day.
Step Four. Don't give up.
It's time.
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
Saturday, June 2, 2012
Dear God, It's Leslie AGAIN.....
Dear God,
Please...
Make vegetables taste better,
Carbohydrates taste worse.
Water to satisfy me.
And pop taste like dirt.
Take away my cravings
For sugar and junk.Please let there be
A lot less in my trunk.
Make the clothes that don’t fit me
Because their too tight,Fall off of my body
That will someday be light.
Help me to be a do-er
And not just a talker.
Be an encourgagement to others
and a walk-the-walk walker.
Please Lord, give me...
Forgiveness
Courage
Motivation
Wisdom
Knowledge
Perseverance
Strength
Ability
Health
Happiness
Love
Amen.
Thursday, February 23, 2012
God Bless Texas
Texas has been really hard on my diet. Maybe its the fact that I'm not working right now, but I generally spend my days either at my computer, or out galivanting with my mother and my aunt. Just yesterday, we met my cousin for lunch, did some running around and then five of us went out to dinner. Yes I know, I could have ordered salads, but these places were not exactly conducive to decent salads. One place was a bar (gotta have a bar burger) and the other was this little diner out in the middle of nowheresville. The menu selection was....well... let's just say slim pickings in the healthy food department. Fried, fried, fried.
I hope I get a job soon. I don't know how much more of the going out to lunch and dinner my wallet and waist line can afford. I love spending the time with my family though. We're a good group of people.
My sister called and asked me to be her diet buddy. I am going to get online and check out the Dr. Oz/Weight Watchers thing and see how that works. Dr. Oz had on his show a few weeks ago, a way to boost your metabolism. The video is for Raspberry Ketones. http://www.doctoroz.com/videos/miracle-fat-burner-bottle. Since Dr. Oz had them on his show, they are very hard to find. Most places have them on back order or don't know when they will get them in again. However, Mom and I found some yesterday at a local store and we are both going to try them. In the above video, Dr Oz demonstrates how the Ketones are supposed to help shrink your fat cells and boost your metabolism. Pretty cool demonstration. They are all natural, so there should be no side effects. Here's hoping.
Well this girl has lots to do today and needs to get at it. First up, a second cup of coffee.
Toodles,
Leslie
I hope I get a job soon. I don't know how much more of the going out to lunch and dinner my wallet and waist line can afford. I love spending the time with my family though. We're a good group of people.
My sister called and asked me to be her diet buddy. I am going to get online and check out the Dr. Oz/Weight Watchers thing and see how that works. Dr. Oz had on his show a few weeks ago, a way to boost your metabolism. The video is for Raspberry Ketones. http://www.doctoroz.com/videos/miracle-fat-burner-bottle. Since Dr. Oz had them on his show, they are very hard to find. Most places have them on back order or don't know when they will get them in again. However, Mom and I found some yesterday at a local store and we are both going to try them. In the above video, Dr Oz demonstrates how the Ketones are supposed to help shrink your fat cells and boost your metabolism. Pretty cool demonstration. They are all natural, so there should be no side effects. Here's hoping.
Well this girl has lots to do today and needs to get at it. First up, a second cup of coffee.
Toodles,
Leslie
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Day Three....
Yesterday was a tad hellish on the diet. Taco Bell (Chicken Burrito Fresco and a frozen strawberry fruit drink) for lunch and a Fat Boys Burger (with Fries and a Dr Pepper) for dinner. Yes, I know I could have skipped the fries and had water, but who wants water with a burger?! Today is not going to be easy either. We take my mom to the Dr in Bryan and will have to take her for lunch afterwards as she can not eat right before her appointment. Salad anyone? At least we'll do some mall walking to walk it off.
Toodles Everyone, I've got to get to gettin'.
Leslie
Toodles Everyone, I've got to get to gettin'.
Leslie
Monday, February 13, 2012
Day Two - UPDATE.
Well, Mom and I are both still alive! We haven't killed each other yet. Also, I tracked my food today (well most of it). I have gotta get the water in me. If I were to take half my weight and drink that in ounces.... (or as my sister Shannon says "Drink Niagara Falls") I'll be up all night peeing. Guess I better start small and work my way up to that one! lol
Sunday, February 12, 2012
Measurements Sunday 2/12/2012
WEIGHT: 262
ARMS: 16"
CHEST: 52.5"
NECK: 17"
THIGHS: 27.5"
WAIST: 48"
HIPS: 54"
ARMS: 16"
CHEST: 52.5"
NECK: 17"
THIGHS: 27.5"
WAIST: 48"
HIPS: 54"
Time For A Change
Hello again, It's been a while. Goals are a great thing, but if you're not willing to make the change, goals don't mean a damn thing. I guess I wasn't really ready the last time. Not sure if I am now. I hope I am.
Life has taken some exciting, scary, and crazy twists and turns. I lost my job at the beginning of January, sold my house that same day. Packed up and moved from Michigan to Texas, where I am now living with my Mom. I decided that while I was going through all of the chaos and stress of moving, I just couldn't add dieting to the mix. I ate as I pleased. The only good news is that I was so busy and moving so much, I don't think I gained all that much weight. Even with all of the going away lunches and dinners with my friends, most of the weight gain was prior to January.
I am now up to 262 pounds. Clothes don't fit. My feet and ankles are swollen ALL the time. BP check anyone?! Tying my shoes and going to the bathroom have become a challenge. (My arms are only so long...)
My Mom and I are going to try to do this together. Please pray for us. Pray that two food depraved women, living together, don't kill each other!! I know it's always better when you have someone to take the journey with. Not always easier, but it does helps to have the support. Mom wants to lose around 40 pounds and after my last weigh-in, I need to lose at least 80 pounds.
Gonna have Mom take my measurements today, do my best to track my food and exercise, and get moving. After all, I haven't failed until I stop trying.
God's Infinite Blessings,
Leslie
Life has taken some exciting, scary, and crazy twists and turns. I lost my job at the beginning of January, sold my house that same day. Packed up and moved from Michigan to Texas, where I am now living with my Mom. I decided that while I was going through all of the chaos and stress of moving, I just couldn't add dieting to the mix. I ate as I pleased. The only good news is that I was so busy and moving so much, I don't think I gained all that much weight. Even with all of the going away lunches and dinners with my friends, most of the weight gain was prior to January.
I am now up to 262 pounds. Clothes don't fit. My feet and ankles are swollen ALL the time. BP check anyone?! Tying my shoes and going to the bathroom have become a challenge. (My arms are only so long...)
My Mom and I are going to try to do this together. Please pray for us. Pray that two food depraved women, living together, don't kill each other!! I know it's always better when you have someone to take the journey with. Not always easier, but it does helps to have the support. Mom wants to lose around 40 pounds and after my last weigh-in, I need to lose at least 80 pounds.
Gonna have Mom take my measurements today, do my best to track my food and exercise, and get moving. After all, I haven't failed until I stop trying.
God's Infinite Blessings,
Leslie
Monday, September 5, 2011
A Quick Note... and Maybe a Goal or Two.
Last Friday morning I stepped on the scale about 50 times. Amongst all of the numbers it came up with (292, 213), 239 was the most consistent number. So that is what I went with. This morning I changed the battery on the scale. My new number and probably the correct number is 244. OUCH! I'm gonna go put the old battery back in!
Goals...
1. Kick coffee and creamer to the curb once and for all. I can't stand black coffee, so it has to go too. And fat free creamer is just plain nasty.
2. Pop has got to go too!
3. HFCS and processed foods - you're outta here....
4. Juicing in my juicer.
5. Water Water Water!!!
These goals are not new. Just a reminder.
Goals...
1. Kick coffee and creamer to the curb once and for all. I can't stand black coffee, so it has to go too. And fat free creamer is just plain nasty.
2. Pop has got to go too!
3. HFCS and processed foods - you're outta here....
4. Juicing in my juicer.
5. Water Water Water!!!
These goals are not new. Just a reminder.
Friday, September 2, 2011
A Pity Party for One.
I have no words, only shame. This is what greeted me this morning when I stepped on the scale after several months of eating and drinking whatever I could get my hands on. I truly don't know WHY I do this to myself. I am so uncomfortable in my clothes. I have always been uncomfortable in my own skin.
I do so well, lose 20 pounds and then lose focus. I celebrate my 20 pound loss with food, pop (or soda if you prefer), chocolate, cake, candy, ice cream. I stop exercising. I end up feeling like crap. I look like crap. My skin is terrible. My outlook is horrendous, a part of me just doesn't care. I want to eat what I want to eat when I want to eat it.
How BIG do I have to get, before I take my weight loss, my health seriously? 250? 300? I look at pictures of people who have lost 90. 100, 150 pounds and think WOW! HOW did they do THAT!! Lots of hard work and determination. Something I apparently am allergic to when it comes to weight loss.
So once again I will pull myself up by my bootstraps, put on my now "REALLY BIG" big girl panties, and get at it once again. It's time for the pity party to end.
My promise to myself... Today, I will do better than yesterday. Tomorrow I will do better than today. I have too. No ifs, ands, or BUTTS!
Saturday, June 11, 2011
A New Challange
Well, a couple challenges actually.
First of all I joined a challange on MFP yesterday. It is a 12 week challange and I HOPE to lose 20 pounds by the end of it. There are mini goals throughout. My tracker is below. I think 7 pounds a month is attainable, even realistic. The problem is with motivation and keeping myself moving forward. I am easily sidetracked by sugary goodness in any form.
Current Weight (As of today): 229
Challenge Goal Weight (for Sept. 1st): 209
Weight Category: REDUCE
6/9: **start of challenge** 229
6/16:
6/23:
6/30:
7/7: <<>>
7/14:
7/21:
7/28:
8/4: <<>>
8/11:
8/18:
8/25:
9/1: <<>>
Second challange is to myself. I have got to, I repeat I HAVE GOT TO, give up coffee creamer and pop. They are nothing but wasted calories and added inches. I just wish they weren't so delicious. Hmmmph!
Third, new head space. I need to do some soul searching and ask myself the tough questions. I feel like a broken record.
Q: Why do you keep doing this to yourself?
A: I have no idea. I hate how I look and feel 99% of the time. My face is HUGE. My clothes make me feel like sausage in a tight casing. Not good. I skipped church today because none of my clothes fit and I'm embarrased of how I look. I was doing so well and I just gave up. I feel ashamed.
Q: What am I scared of?
A: Nothing. Everything. I'm not afraid to be alone, but I fear being lonely. I fear intimacy. I fear getting hurt. I fear losing the weight, gaining someone's attention, and then losing it and getting my heart crushed.
Q: Do I want to die early from obesity? Or one of the many side effects of obesity, such as heart disease, diabetes, cancer...???
A: No, No, No, & No. While there is no direct family history of diabetes in my family, I do not want to be the first! There is heart disease and cancer.
Q: Will I ever figure out all of the answers to the questions?
A: Probably not!
So what to do next. I pick myself up ONCE again and start moving forward. One foot in front of the other. The only reason to look back is to try and figure out more answers to the questions above and WHY it is that I keep going back (besides comfort and laziness) and maybe finally break this vicious circle.
First of all I joined a challange on MFP yesterday. It is a 12 week challange and I HOPE to lose 20 pounds by the end of it. There are mini goals throughout. My tracker is below. I think 7 pounds a month is attainable, even realistic. The problem is with motivation and keeping myself moving forward. I am easily sidetracked by sugary goodness in any form.
Current Weight (As of today): 229
Challenge Goal Weight (for Sept. 1st): 209
Weight Category: REDUCE
6/9: **start of challenge** 229
6/16:
6/23:
6/30:
7/7: <<
7/14:
7/21:
7/28:
8/4: <<
8/11:
8/18:
8/25:
9/1: <<
Second challange is to myself. I have got to, I repeat I HAVE GOT TO, give up coffee creamer and pop. They are nothing but wasted calories and added inches. I just wish they weren't so delicious. Hmmmph!
Third, new head space. I need to do some soul searching and ask myself the tough questions. I feel like a broken record.
Q: Why do you keep doing this to yourself?
A: I have no idea. I hate how I look and feel 99% of the time. My face is HUGE. My clothes make me feel like sausage in a tight casing. Not good. I skipped church today because none of my clothes fit and I'm embarrased of how I look. I was doing so well and I just gave up. I feel ashamed.
Q: What am I scared of?
A: Nothing. Everything. I'm not afraid to be alone, but I fear being lonely. I fear intimacy. I fear getting hurt. I fear losing the weight, gaining someone's attention, and then losing it and getting my heart crushed.
Q: Do I want to die early from obesity? Or one of the many side effects of obesity, such as heart disease, diabetes, cancer...???
A: No, No, No, & No. While there is no direct family history of diabetes in my family, I do not want to be the first! There is heart disease and cancer.
Q: Will I ever figure out all of the answers to the questions?
A: Probably not!
So what to do next. I pick myself up ONCE again and start moving forward. One foot in front of the other. The only reason to look back is to try and figure out more answers to the questions above and WHY it is that I keep going back (besides comfort and laziness) and maybe finally break this vicious circle.
Comfort zones are plush lined coffins. When you stay in your plush lined coffins, you die. Stan Dale
I feel uncomfortable because I'm insecure about who I am. Trent Reznor
I had always wanted to write a song called, The Vicious Circle. I always thought it was like, the kids are born there, they grow up there, they die there. Mac Davis*Quotes are from Brainy Quote.
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